Life is a Marathon not a Sprint. I don’t like running.
Just when we think we’ve done all our growing and learning in our childhood, we find out we have bad habits to unlearn and growth is a continual process.
Life has a way of settling a pace for us once we’ve chosen a track. Jobs, kids, commitments all keep us busy and distracted. We go with the flow until we wonder “why am I doing this”?
My body started to break down so I cut back the amount of cardio exercise. It continued. I gave up yoga, then all exercise. Trying to find answers, even medically, was exhausting. After failing to get any definitive results, I began to give up all together. I had tried less carbs more meat, less meat more veggies, no grains, less alcohol, and still gained weight and kept getting injured. Fear of injury kicked in and I became paralyzed. Where was the limit before I hurt myself? Maybe it would be better to give up and do nothing. Once my mind spiraled down to that message, it seemed like an impossibility to stop and change. “I don’t think so” had replaced “you can do this”.
I needed a spark, something positive — movement. Finding a better food choice, taking a walk, the number on the scale dropping slightly — a small amount of encouragement helped to reset the mind toward “I think I can”, “I can do better “, “I’m healthy and strong” ….all little mantras to focus on to help the reprogramming process. Telling myself I was sick only made me more sick.
I watched the same negative process take place in a family member and it was also a wake up call. Yet, those around us who need help cannot accept it. We become what we believe. That is why it is so hard once we’ve gone negative and it so important to tell ourselves a positive message. This is how we guard our heart and mind.
Giving up into the negative narrative in my head prevented me from living life to the full. Learning to let go of crippling thoughts opens the door for positive practices and ultimately results. When we’re happy with ourselves, we are a positive influence and certainly more fun to be around!
My island opportunity offers a wonderful outdoor lifestyle with no excuse for sitting around feeling sorry for myself. Look at the beautiful, inspiring surroundings! Walking, swimming, yoga, and volleyball are all available to me. Eating and drinking involves a bit more discipline.
It really is all in your head, that’s where it all starts. Exercise instructors, friends, family all offer positive words. Sometimes we’re not ready to receive them but they come back to us when we give them the chance. Messages and mantras of encouragement like: “a body in motion, stays in motion “, “you’re stronger then you think”, and one that may get to our very core, “ you’re worth it”.
Coasting along leaves the thought life unchecked. Bottoming out is never anyone’s intention, but can happen easily. Mindfulness and continually focusing on an intention will speak into better habits. This may come so easy to some, not for me. But it is attainable — if I can do it, so can you.
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Shortly after writing the above, l came down with a stomach virus. Suddenly sharp cramping alerted me that vomiting was inevitable, which I did all night long. By morning my whole body had wrung itself out. I was desperately in need of water and sleep. Just in time for the new year I received a reset. When the stomach was completely empty I realized again how much food I’m actually eating. Pain brings awareness and caution, causing slower intake. Pausing along the way to wait for a reaction was more natural.
Chewing slowly with mindfulness and being in the moment is instructive. This allows time for the brain to register that hunger is being satiated. As a teen I had to eat fast because of working right after school. Who knew that eating speed could or would become a habit? Overeating happens so easily with speed! I’m glad that family sit-down dinners are also part of my history. The communal activity of eating together while connecting is truly something to be relished. Sweet memories for me often revolve around such gatherings.
2020 marked the end of a decade, a beginning of another, and a new year too. Reflecting back is a great way to tweak things going forward.
I will not give up.
I will let go of things that encumber and prevent me from achieving my goals.
Coasting is a bad idea.
I will be patient with myself as I sometimes stumble and not beat myself up.
I will trust with understanding that my body is working hard to heal itself and continues to be my vehicle in this beautiful thing called life.